Broken

Right now my heart is broken into piecies... A lot of thing dat happened on my life dad I regret to much ...seriously..is it hard for u to reply at least one?I know I might disturbing u but ignoring me make me feel if I can commit a sin dat I will not get back da sin back to mr definitely right now I might have kill few people...but my conclusion now is to Leave and ignore everyone dat hurt my heart coz enough is enough...for once I might forget about it but after a lot dat I do I'm just thinking should I forgive everything dat u done?I shouldn't right?if u have a lil heart u should definitely thing if u urself should be forgiven by me..but to avoid any of unpleasant situation happened between us I will forgetting for now dat I know u..if I ignoring u ,u should understand why coz I'm tired already just to make people heart in pleasant way but enough is enough...i just wish dat I'm not knowing u but fate make it da other way...just remember dis my pleasant attitude from now on will not be da same anymore...

What with da word and da whole thing gurlz?
Hehehe Im just expressing my feeling becoz there isn't any shoulder for me to lean against...not dat I'm didn't have frenz anymore... I have just I don't have any dat a good listener for me to express it...

So guys till then...want to sleep need to get up early tommorrow

cutie dead

yesterday im feeding da cat (mickey) then i went to check for minie (hamster)and cutie (hamster) food is the food is enough or not but yet i saw da food still full so i change the water only..then when i want to put da water back i saw something suspicious about the hamster..my instinct say dat the hamster is dead...so i take something in way to check whether its alive or not but the bad news is dat cutie is dead...i feel so damn sad im even cry about it....then later in the night i go out with my frenz to mcd bangsar in way to help her coz she got an interview session for da next day...in our way back to da car suddenly we saw the backlight of da car has been crash by someone...seriously...damn bad condition...im so worried...even its not my car yet still need to worried aite...my frenz went home sadly...i donno what to do...im not da type dat expert in comforting someone...i only can give advice but in comfort issue,im very bad in dat...dats why if someone dat feel not so good or something bad...im only can give advice...just dat...sorry guys...cant help a lot but if u want to talk to someone i definitely can be there to listen...what else huh?hmmm...nothing much...for today i went to cut my hair...driving rini's saga...(huhuu nowdays im been giving permission to drive dat saga..hahaha,a lil bit lazy to drive persona...quite big and im not expert to adjust da site to park da car...if on da road there will be no problem) after dat went back...then i buy 4 comics at da 7 eleven... a must thing to do if im in dat area...must went to da 7 eleven and search for new comics..now in my head in concerning about working coz dis month da mara loan im not going to receive it...quite worried about da bill and others thing dat need to pay...maybe gonna search for part time job for a while...yalah...if i want to wait for permanent job might gonna cost me a lot of time to spent plus actually my dad ask me not to search for a job till my convo is finish plus he want me to apply for the police job..adieh..what to do...im in bad condition...eh guys oklah...till then k...going to post more if got time...da....

routine

hye guys salam...wassup!! hehehe...its been quite long time i post something aite...im now just doing same routine everyday every week...everyday my work of life is to do my dad work after he come back even it was 4.00 am in the morning...what to do ...im just a daughter...then every monday,wednesday and friday night around 7.30pm send my lil sis to her school then after dat around 9.40 pm something take her back from her school...before this im also taking her back from school around 2.30pm coz she got extra class ....but then she taking the van..but just in case im free im taking her from her school the night class if for the tuition ....huhuhu...seem like im becoming a driver aite..what to do everyone busy plus my dad also donno what time he is coming back from work....so other than that is taking care my lil niece ...feed,bath,dress,and sleep her...all that plus the housework that i need to do...oklah...my niece is disturbing me...want to type something on the keyboard...adiehh... bubye

Sorry

Why Did I put da title sorry ?coz I just want to say this word ...bullshit man...I hate when people lie...just couldn't understand why people need to say something dat just make people feel so sympathy to dat person...serious I don't like dat kind of people...so what ur life suck ,why need to do such thing...my life suck too but just say what I'm going to say but it won't make me a liar also person dat like to take other sympathy...there no need for others sympathy coz I will be just fine and definitely won't need for me to lie..so today Its my first time to drive my mom persona coz I'll be da one dat will continue to pay for da car ...yet still my luv kancil still da best..before dis the radiator of my kancil got some liking...almost three days I just couldn't stop worrying about dat...after changing da radiator the car us fine and today also my father change the absover(huhuhu didn't know if I spell it right..)then change the 2 tyre and do some element adjustment...so know the car is in good condition...but dat car I only use for certain things...as if I already start working I'll be using the personas...huhuhu quite adventure coz I'm still not get to use dat care to adjust the site coz persona is more bigger than kancil..will post some pic..

CurRently

Currently I like to listen song before I go to sleep or sleep while listening to da song


The song title dat I'm listening :

delima hati by ungu
I am a loner by cnblue
selalu mengalah by seventeen
waktu Yg dinanti by ungu
timeless by jang ri
mystery by beast
hati Yg Kau lukai by Rossa
incureable dicease by wheesung feat mastA wu
heartbeat by 2 pm
shecant get enough by big bang

and etc but those song I list is da most song I like to listen lately, it is the music either when I listen to it my body feel free to dance even I can imagine the choreographer for the song or the lyrics dat might similiar to my life.. I need some music and lyrics dat could wake me up from dream... I donno what to expect anymore.. My life is a mess... My heart is broken into piecies , I donno what going to happened ... I just in mythought now to find a job for me as now I have a big responsibility dat I need to fulfilled as the oldest sister in da family...might not gonna not to think about my life n heart for donno how long... Just hoping everything just going to br fine even my heart just definitely everyday broken still need to be strong for my family.. I won't show my weakness and definitely going to live for them from now on... Just hoping maybe later there will be someone for me to lend the shoulder for me to let go off the burden not to carry with them coz I just need a shoulder for me to cry and listening to what I have to say ... Not into luv just now coz there no time for me to do dat and not becoz I'm so choosy just dat I could t imagine my self getting married or even falling in luv anymore.. Dat time has pass and I'm done with dat life.. Mayb it was my destiny to be alone and live up my life for my family... Now they are da most important thing for me to think... Maybe they won't appriciate but that is enough for me just seeing them happy...maybe I'm not gonna be a prefect daughter but yet stil I will try to fulfilled my responsibility for them .. Sound silly what I'm saying and whatlH I'm saying... It just some thought dat I have in my mind... Just hoping dat people will accept me for I am and myself the way I'm